Nervous energy can creep up at any moment and blur our relationship with the world and those around us. An illusory reality seeps into every cell of the body and disturbs the mind with a very convincing story.
It may feel like an overwhelming cloud of suffocation or rising heat that can’t escape. A whirlwind of frustration or fear can overpower our senses. In a cycle of doubt, we can forget how remarkable we are, how far we’ve come and the love that surrounds us.
Everything that is good appears momentarily shithouse. What is already perfect becomes tainted and self-esteem wavers and confidence diminishes. I write this because I have experienced these feelings and thoughts on numerous occasions and am not always free from their grasp.
There are tools that can help tackle these burdens, but sometimes I am stubborn to use them. This resistance is fuelled by the ego, addicted to drama, clinging to suffering and feeding on negativity, disguising itself as the real self.
I like to think I am a positive person with buckets of light and laughter to share. I am fortunate to have beautiful people in my life, an awesome family and an encouraging partner who I love to bits.
I am grateful for the life lessons I have learned, and to my Yoga Teachers who have guided me on this path so compassionately. My heart has never felt more open, and equally I have never felt more vulnerable.
Despite these teachings and surroundings, I can catch myself falling into the trap of not-so-happy thoughts. All it takes is a little trigger, and a rush of anxiety can soar through me and linger for days, weeks or months.
I feel an uneasiness and restlessness worming its way through my body. The best way I know how to work through this discomfort is to move my body gently and creatively. I breathe into undiscovered spaces and focus my attention to sensations rather than thoughts.
Afterwards I sit or lie down and bring my awareness to any residual thoughts or feelings. There are some things that cannot be solved at a mind level, and so the only thing left to do is become a witness and observe. I trust that this awareness will bring forward the light that is needed.
What am I feeling?
Where am I feeling?
Who is feeling?
Nervous energy can quickly take hold of the mind and body and cause pain and suffering. In an instant of awareness, this energy can be transformed to a higher vibration and provide spaciousness, acceptance, peace and connection.
If you are struggling, remember you are your greatest teacher. Listen to what your body and mind have to say. Put down your phone and disconnect from social media for a while. Spend some time in nature. If you have a dog, give them your undivided attention.
If all of this doesn’t help, interpretive dance in your bedroom, wave your arms like a wild octopus, sing at the top of your lungs, paint a picture or write a letter and set it on fire. Intuitively do whatever it is you need to do.
If none of this helps, reach out to a friend or stranger, maybe they can dance or throw paint with you. If you are at a complete loss, eventually you will surrender and have no choice but to change states, release and heal.
What state of being are you mostly residing in?
A dull mind or light mind?
Is the past or future dictating how you perceive the present?
It can be hard to admit, but are you looking for something wrong? Are you comparing yourself to others? Are you honouring your SELF, as you are? See your SELF in others. Love the SELF.
We must take responsibility for our own happiness and be grateful for what we have and not take ourselves too seriously.